why i dont like cry

assalamualaikum..
once again,there is a misunderstanding with my mom..(gado ngan fozan gak..xcol lagi smpi skrg)
m'bka pekung di dada?
maybe,but i guess not..
i am a daughter,sister n a friend..
as a human being,i'm not perfect
and i dun even want to be perfect!


if i am agood daughter,sis or friend..
why i not try to be nice to them??
i wish to be solehah but i still not reach that limit yet..
it is hard to me to forgive n forgiven
hard to me to forget all the stupid momories in my mind..
and b'coz of that,
hard to me to say 'sorry'..


every second is preciouse..
because each second past,it makes my heart hard like a rock
trust me....
ask someone that knows me since primary school..
i have changed a lot!
why?
because i cried a lot and i've been hurt to0 many times..
and i learned fr0m experience..


there is time when i feel like i dun wanna live
im tired(this is not a suicide letter ok??)
i need to muhasabah diri..
may HE show me the right path..
to be solehah servant..


sometimes,
i feel like wanna escapes n go whereever i want
but i have no guts to do that..
i love my daddy n my mom..n my siblings to..
i dun wanna menconteng arang)muka  parents aku..
i really3 love them but i dun feel their love..
i feel my daddy love but others??
i know my mom love me..
because i'm the spoilest daughter she ever had :p
but,
why am i the only one have to through this stupid psycological mind whatsoever la!

dun worry mama..
i'll leave the house...(pegy u bkn lari umah ok)
as soon as possible..
i'ii try to be agood daughter for you..
i'ii make u proud..
INSYA ALLAH..


p/s:sorry to everyone terutama yg pernah kecik ati ngan aku..


 :(